30 Day Blogging Challenge or Sorta!

To those who are interested in joining the fun of blogging challenges, here’s a complete list of topics for my 30 Day Blogging Challenge:

Now, I don’t think I will be able to do one a day but I will defiantly try… I will start with Day today Feb. 6 2013 and try to catch up!

 

Day 1: Favorite Song

Day 2: Favorite Movie

Day 3: Favorite Book

Day 4: Favorite TV Program

Day 5: Favorite Quotation

Day 6: 18 Things People Should Know About You

Day 7: 5 Things You Couldn’t Possibly Live Without

Day 8: A Letter to the 8 Year Old You

Day 9: A Photo That You Took

Day 10: What You Want To Be Remembered For

Day 11: A Photo of You Taken Recently

Day 12: Your Favorite Word From Another Language

Day 13: A List of 25 Things You Want To Do In Your Life

Day 14: A Place You Want To Spend Your Last Vacation In

Day 15: Your Worst Habit

Day 16: What Made You Cry Recently?

Day 17: 5 Things That You Want To Receive For Your Birthday

Day 18: A Time When You Felt Passionate and Alive

Day 19: A Special Talent of Yours

Day 20: A Song You Want to be Played at Your Wedding

Day 21: A Website that Made A Big Impact in Your Life

Day 22: A Weird Habit of Yours

Day 23: List 5 Persons You Want to Spend Your Last Day With

Day 24: Five Songs that are Currently on Top of Your Playlist

Day 25: List Your 3 Best Bargain Deals

Day 26: Someone You Miss the Most

Day 27: A Physical Feature that You Love

Day 28: Describe Your Ideal Man/Woman

Day 29: Your Plans and Goals for the Next 365 Days

Day 30: Why Do You Love Yourself?

Some days we just feel down…

I wish we would never have these type of days, you know the ones where we feel so down in the dumps that nothing can make it a better day. I wish there was a genie that would come and make the day better… But, we are all human and we will have these days. I try not to let myself have a “pity party” because life is way to short but COME ON who are we kidding??? I guess for me I get down because I tend to keep everything inside. All my emotions all what I am feeling stays bottled up until I cant take it any more and it is like a Bomb explodes. I need a way to vent, so I plan on writing my thoughts here. So in the future I can always look back and see where I came from.

I think the hardest thing I am going through is CHANGE. Now, don’t get me wrong I love change but my life changed wayyyyy to fast. I was a working mom, 40 hrs a week. I would talk to adults everyday, I felt important and I was doing a job that brought the income in. I have always been a very independent person so that was what made me happy was providing for my family. But a week before I had Laya, I stopped working and became a SAHM while my husband went off to work. Now, that is a huge change for me and to top that off a week after leaving my job I had my precious baby girl. So two life vents happened all in a span of two weeks. I really didn’t have time to adjust slowly. Which, I know its life and I need to get over it, but how do you tell your brain this. Sometimes I feel like I am not good enough and I cant stand feeling like that. Not a good enough mother, wife or heck even a friend. I wish some one would just take my hand and say “Cyndy, you are doing a good job” I haven't felt like I am in a long time and it bummed me out. I lost all my pre-pregnancy weight after Laya was born and I feel it coming back and that gets me upset. I know I am a strong person because I have always been since the day I was born I have held my head up high and never gave in, but these days I feel my spirit changing… I know I need to go to church I know I need to find the happiness in myself, but that’s harder said then done. So if you happen to browse upon this, Thank you for reading. I know I will get better and get over this feeling. I know writing my emotions will help me and you know after writing this I do feel better!!! Stay tuned for more “journal entries”

 

Peace, Love and Happiness

Cyn<3

Dear Jelly Belly, 13w2d

Hi baby Jelly Belly,
Its your Momma, right now you are 13 weeks and 3 days old. I love you so much already. My, have you grown a lot since daddy and I found out you were growing in my belly. We found out March 22nd and we were so happy! I am glad you are doing okay. Keep growing strong and healthy. I can believe I am already in the 2nd trimester with you. It has flown by so fast!
Big brother is super happy. He comes and kisses my belly and lays his head and says "night night" He loves you very much. I am warning you baby he is a little firecracker. lol. :) Also I am thankful for your big sister up in Heaven for helping design you just like she helped design brother. But no fair she knows if you are a boy or girl and we still have to wait about 6 more weeks. I have an idea BUT I can also be completely wrong as well. We will see, No matter if you are a boy or girl I promise you that you will be loved by us. :)
We also have your name picked out. I love you Jelly belly! MUAH! You are going to be my little fall baby! Talk to you later.

Love, Your Momma!